Saturday, November 22, 2008

Call to Arms

Well this is my first post in this blog. Actually, this is my first blog, and I'm pretty excited about it. I've never been compelled to write, but sometimes I feel the need to write about how I'm feeling to make me feel better. It's weird, but it helps. 

Lately, I've felt the need to analyze my friends, or the people I consider friends. Since this semester began at Clemson, I've met a ton of new people, many of which have become my good friends, but the thing that intrigues me is that they are all very different. I like that I have such a wide variety of friends, it makes life fun. Variety is the spice of life, right? (according to Wendy's) I've also noticed that in making all these new friends, I've strayed away from my old friends, mainly people I knew in high school. I have fond memories of my two best friends, and I talking about how we'd always be friend even after college, and our kids would grow up with each other and we would take them to little league football and the world would just be great. Upon further review, that doesn't look likely. I've seen only one of those friends since August. I'm not complaining about having new friends because I believe that college is a time to meet people, and experience new things, but I would still like to have some old friends to turn to relieve "the good old days". 

Another topic I'd like to discuss is school itself. First off let me say that I am so blessed to be able to attend Clemson University. As I look back over my family, and see where I came from it is indeed and honor to be here. My parents never attended college, and my dad did not even finish high school, and now their son has the opportunity to graduate from one the best institutions in the country. My mind also go back to my deceased grandmother who didn't go to school at all because it wasn't "necessary" for blacks to be educated. To see where I am now gives me tremendous hope for the future. I can only dream of what my children will be able to do in this world. Having said all this, I feel a great deal of pressure of rise to the occasion and do the best I can in my academic pursuits. I often times feel like no matter how hard I try, or how much I study; I just cannot seem to make the grades I need to make. I knew that coming to Clemson would be a challenge, but I also know that God would not have given me this opportunity if I could not accomplish the goal. I know that I may sound like a lost depressed soul, but I'm not. I just need some encouragement along the journey. I know God will take care of me and see me through this. Well, this is all I'm going to write for the first blog, I hope you like it and your feedback would be appreciated.

P.S. If you're loving for a new song to download, I would recommend "Lost" by Coldplay. It's good stuff.